806th entry

The hard truth had arrived.
The baby has no heartbeat and I had D&C surgery in last Tuesday.
Today is another sad event.

My pet, Darling had passed away. I am totally devasting with it. I had lost two family members within 3 days time. I don't how to deal with it. 

Suddenly I felt something was weird since she died. Darling was always sitting or swimming in the tank while I was watching tv. She always was at my side whenever I was there. She was the only one who listens without making a comment nor complaint. She was my listening ears and I would share everything with her. She turned dry and harden when I woke her to feed her dinner. She is totally no response and she has died. 

And now she is not there

I love you, Darling...