164th entry

I felt i had make the right decision making to pay the payment by myself. If i pay myself and no one will say bad @ me. Athough life will be harder, i felt more satisifed.

I felt i need to be stronger (in term of emotional and physical) to overcome the harsh path ahead of me.. In reality, no decision cannot balance best from both side of world. Therefore i need to choose a best decision out of the worst situation. So i need to be hard hearted in some manners. Perhap, in future, u will no longer seeing the nice me ard..